I was watching a rather spicy movie in a cinema theater with all my senses fully tuned to the movie and the attractive actors who were doing their bit in front of my eyes.
No doubt the movie was enthralling and enjoyable. However, I felt for some moments that I was parallely preparing a cool concept to share with all audience. In fact, this concept has been cocooning my mind for so many years that it needed a catalyst like this energetic movie to come out and present itself to the wide world.
We all know that there are some small parts and elements that together form an integral sum. Sometimes, we think that the sum is larger than some of its parts. Sometimes, we are content with the small parts because we believe that the individual elements could be easier to live with than the complete story. Here is what I mean by all this philosophical talk…
These days, rather these years, I have been on a ‘dating spree’, with the end goal being to get married to a beautiful bride. Now, we can quickly and safely assume that the ‘sum’ in this saga is for me to get married. Guess what the ‘some’ individual elements could be? Yes, to fall in love with a beautiful girl, then harboring thoughts of proposing her for marriage with me, then throwing all caution to the wind and asking her hand to be lent to me, and if she denies at that stage – which in all probability is the most likely outcome in my case – then, to convulge to that outcome as if it were the only end goal. Also, with all due respect to love, I would term this mania of falling in love as an ‘out of the world’ event, and everything else as a ‘practical' event.
Now, while watching this wonderful movie at night, I was also tearing my mind for how to talk to the girl for my date next morning whom I had never seen earlier. Of course, it was her parents who had earlier set up this ‘date’ of mine with her. Yeah yeah, this is the arranged Indian wedding concept. And believe me, it is quite cool.
In between the movie, there were at least six instances of my fierce desire to propose to my long-time lovely girl friend. I love her so much that it would be cruel to not spend my life with her. However, what would happen if she does not accept my proposal? Will she break our 'larger than life' friendship? And what if she does agree to my proposal and then after marriage, she suddenly finds that she is seeing me too often and ditchingly decides to drop the ‘lover’ tag that I had associated myself with so fondly up until now?
To add twist to the taler, I had somehow decided to get married in the next two months, so as to break the boring life that I had been living like a moron.
Torn in between ‘some’ event of my being in love with a girl, and ‘sum’ event of my going ahead to marry a stranger girl in next two months who would give long-lasting support to me for the rest of my life, I feared and felt like God standing on both the edges of a large banana-shaped canopy and tossing my fate like a shuttle cork. To make matters worse, there were some scenes and dialogues in the movie that sometimes made me lean towards the ‘sum’ event – for example, I was able to remember some forgotten conversations with my friends and important task items for my daily agenda – and then tilted me suddenly towards the ‘some’ event’ – for example, the ‘out of the world’ feeling from remembering about my lover!
I was so much struggling with myself now that even the popcorn in my hand was starting to slip and spill (watch out for my use of words! I already sound as if my brain is spiraling towards resignation!). I do remember that there was a climax to the movie, but I cannot quite reckon what exactly it was. I was just so much tied up with my tumultuous thoughts!
Luckily, soon the movie ended, and as soon as the closing scene came, something ticked my brain to remind me that the ‘sum’ is always greater than the ‘some’ parts.Two months later, no wonder I, rather my fate, ditched my old-time love for my ‘arranged’ wife.
